Two years later, I finally had an answer, but that answer meant I had another medical condition. There is both relief and grief when you get a medical diagnosis. I felt relief because there was an explanation for my symptoms, and I could learn to manage them—and maybe feel better. I felt grief because that meant having yet another medical condition to manage that will likely never go away. That impacts my quality of life. Like many neurological disorders, there isn’t necessarily a cure, but there are ways to manage symptoms. The conflicting emotions can feel like a massive battle in your mind: validated, disappointed, relieved, hopeful, frustrated, angry, hopeful again. That inner battle can feel exhausting, as if there is only one correct emotion.